sad TuesDaY :-(

My day started with a sweet text message from my hubby:

One form of loving is..

when you just want the best for that person,

whether it includes you or not...

Happy Tuesday! :-D

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A few minutes later after receiving that, an exact opposite message arrived on my mobile telling me that he lost the deal of buying the computer equipment from our company where he would earn a commission over another company that offered a much lower cost... Just when we were expecting that money to settle some of our payables next due date... as if the whole world fell on us both.. and he still has some extra-personal problems he has to settle until tomorrow.. i called it "extra" 'cause it's his problems with his illegitimate children that even I, his legal wife, was trying to find ways to help him... My hubby has always been trying to appear strong and dependable during hard times... but when he's got nothing left to give, he breaks down.. sends me "suicidal notes" telling me he couldn't take it anymore... now isn't that a little selfish? here i am, giving myself to him, trying to share with his troubles just to ease his burdens and what does he give in return? he'd tell me he wanted to die and leave all the problems by myself....

Sometimes life really is unfair... but i still thank God that i was able to settle my own problems today, still thanking Him for giving me the strength and keeping my sanity... I know that whatever troubles that would come our way, He won't forsake us... I know that He's just trying to remind us that we at times are neglecting Him.. I wish that one day, I'd wake up with a bright smile on my face and feel a big relief that my problems had all gone away...